One last photo!

Well, the goodbys have been said, the hugs–individual and group–have been given, the parting words of love and devotion have been spoken, and the final prayer was offered.  In keeping with our family tradition, we all gathered on the front porch and amid shouts of goodbye and I love you, while taking that last video of them driving down the driveway, we released Bobby & Maridith to go to the work God has called them to in a land far, far away.

Part of my heart now will be in Africa and I will never be the same. The dynamics of our family have been forever changed.  It will take some time to adjust to the reality that one of my children is no longer within the familiar confines of our beloved U.S.A.  That he will pull up his roots here and replant them in a new land that he will call home.  A land that is so far away that the short and frequent visits we have had the luxury of in the past won’t ever be reality for us again.

How do I deal with these cold realities?  The first thing God is teaching me is that pain is part of the process.  It hurts powerfully!  God reminds me that “I can do all things through God who strengthens me.”  As hurtful as it was to watch my son drive away, knowing he would not be returning for 4 years, God offers me comfort.  He has assured me that the pain will not overwhelm me and I embrace that.  God gives me permission to suffer the pain because if I didn’t embrace such pain if I suppressed it then it would  fester and eventually I would explode.  What that would look like only God knows!

God assures me that in time the pain will become more manageable and joy will break forth with its healing power– eventually!  God tells me not to worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will take care of itself. (Matthew 6:34)  So I work through this pain one day at a time and that helps me, a lot!   Also I have the comfort of Psalm 30:5 . . . in His grace there is life; weeping may be for a night, but joy comes in the morning.

Then there’s 2 Corinthians 12:9, “And he hath said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee; for my power is made perfect in his weakness.  Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my weaknesses, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.”

Yes, right now I’m weak but the glory of that is God won’t let it overwhelm me, He will sustain me. In time it won’t hurt so bad and the comforting, healing waves of joy will sweep over me.  I will rise from this with the power of Christ resting upon me.

That’s what I have to look forward to because God is the lover of my soul and desires to comfort me and make all things better.  But  right now, in this moment, He has bid me to crawl up in His lap and cry my heart out. And oh, how I need that!